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What am I to you?

What am I to you?
I have been struggling through this for quite a long time now.
I have somewhat realized that I have been holding on to a relationship that not really exists. To a commitment that ended long back. To the love that died because of all the lame excuses. To a person who changed in a blink of eye.
Now I know that we can't hold on to something by questioning it all the time. But the sad thing about these kind of people is that they always come as someone really sweet and caring. They tend to show interest in everything that relates to you.
It makes me laugh, how can one be so interested yet so uninvested.
You see?
There is a difference between someone who tells you they miss you and someone who actually does something about it. There is a difference between one who finds time for you and the one who makes time for you. These are a few things that took me a few heartbreaks to realize.
We need to realize that being put first is not being demanding. It just comes with knowing your worth.
And I guess the right question is "What am I to myself?" Then the answer becomes more clear.
I know I am worth more than a "I'll try". I deserve more than an "I miss you but I am busy right now" text. I am more than just potential. I am more than a "second choice" or just an "option".
You need to want me in your life enough to actually do something make sure I am there. Until then, I am more than perfectly fine being with my own self and realizing my worth. Because now I know what all I am worthy of. 😊

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