It has been an year since we have stopped communicating.
Today while going through old pictures, I saw our picture and that reminded me of all those innumerable memories we shared and of course of our friendship.
The only thing I want to say is that I miss you. If for what's worth, I want to tell you how grateful I am for you and all those times when I had you. You had me going in times of despair and when the world stumbled. You were there for my 3 pm gossips and my 3 am crying and I owe you for that.
I am forever thankful and I hope I was able to provide you the same kind of warmth and sunshine that you gave me.
It did break me when I heard you lie, cheat and broke my trust by saying all the rubbish stuffs about me. I was shattered when I had to end our bond. I was shattered when I had to end our bond. Didn't want to, never wanted but had to because it was becoming a necessity.
Sometimes though, I wish you had tried to confess. But other times I give into the face that nothing could be done because the feeling of hurt and betrayal would never go.
Sometimes late at night when my mind is hazy and I struggle with insomnia, I miss having someone to call at 3 am and I miss having all those deep conversations and all this fills my head with nostalgia. I don't know how to explain it better. It's not just the nights. It's the days too.
I am sorry if this is too much but I just wanted to tell you how much I miss you. I miss you but no, I don't want your time again. I don't want to talk to you. I don't want us again because it simply wouldn't be the same.
It wouldn't be enough. </3
Today while going through old pictures, I saw our picture and that reminded me of all those innumerable memories we shared and of course of our friendship.
The only thing I want to say is that I miss you. If for what's worth, I want to tell you how grateful I am for you and all those times when I had you. You had me going in times of despair and when the world stumbled. You were there for my 3 pm gossips and my 3 am crying and I owe you for that.
I am forever thankful and I hope I was able to provide you the same kind of warmth and sunshine that you gave me.
It did break me when I heard you lie, cheat and broke my trust by saying all the rubbish stuffs about me. I was shattered when I had to end our bond. I was shattered when I had to end our bond. Didn't want to, never wanted but had to because it was becoming a necessity.
Sometimes though, I wish you had tried to confess. But other times I give into the face that nothing could be done because the feeling of hurt and betrayal would never go.
Sometimes late at night when my mind is hazy and I struggle with insomnia, I miss having someone to call at 3 am and I miss having all those deep conversations and all this fills my head with nostalgia. I don't know how to explain it better. It's not just the nights. It's the days too.
I am sorry if this is too much but I just wanted to tell you how much I miss you. I miss you but no, I don't want your time again. I don't want to talk to you. I don't want us again because it simply wouldn't be the same.
It wouldn't be enough. </3
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