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You are the cherry to my cupcake, choco chip to my muffin, extra cheese to my pizza, ice to my vodka, cure to my pain. You are my shelter on a rainy day, a warm blanket on a chilly winter night, an umbrella on a sunny day. You are the syndrome I want to live with. You are the drug I am addicted to. You are my 2 am counselor and also my 2 pm crime partner. You are to me what water is to a thirsty person. What I have with you is something I can never have with anyone else. Because, I love you. I love you to the moon and back. I love you beyond infinity. I love you.

It has been an year since we have stopped communicating. Today while going through old pictures, I saw our picture and that reminded me of all those innumerable memories we shared and of course of our friendship. The only thing I want to say is that I miss you. If for what's worth, I want to tell you how grateful I am for you and all those times when I had you. You had me going in times of despair and when the world stumbled. You were there for my 3 pm gossips and my 3 am crying and I owe you for that. I am forever thankful and I hope I was able to provide you the same kind of warmth and sunshine that you gave me. It did break me when I heard you lie, cheat and broke my trust by saying all the rubbish stuffs about me. I was shattered when I had to end our bond. I was shattered when I had to end our bond. Didn't want to, never wanted but had to because it was becoming a necessity. Sometimes though, I wish you had tried to confess. But other times I give into the face that ...

Yesterday you confessed that you like some other girl. I didn't understand why you were telling me that all of a sudden, literally out of the blue while we were sitting at the school canteen. I got a bit scared, what if you knew that I liked you and that you were trying to convince me that it would never work out. But as you continued, I realized you told me because your feelings were for real. Your love for her was real. She was real. And you were telling me because I am your best friend and you trust me. I ain't gonna lie but it indeed came as a shock to my heart. While you were telling me about the girl you love, I tried my best to smile and nod whenever needed. But somewhere a part of me was relieved that you didn't know about my feelings and now you would never know them. I am happy to know that you are happy. As you described her, I didn't even care what she looked like. Her personality seemed to be a perfect match for you, based in the way you described her. ...

Hey you! I just want you to know that I fucking hate you. I can't tolerate you in my life. You are just a headache to me. You made a mess out of me. Today I am at that point where I can trust nobody. I hardly have friends. I have no one to whom I can speak my heart out. You are just a jerk. All the ill that has happened to me is because of you. I lost my best friends. I fought with everyone for you. Sadly, you only need me to fulfil your lust and to listen to your innumerable of drama, excuses, opinions and what not. Each time I tried making time for us, you ended licking my body. You are no less than an asshole who ruined me up. I want you to leave me alone for the rest of my life. I know there was a time when you were my definition of an ideal partner. But that was just a mistake which I am surely going to regret till the end of time. You killed the child in me. I just hate you for everything. How dare you ruin my life? The differences between us are never ending. Even ...

Thank you for walking out of her life, for leaving her. For giving someone else the opportunity to give her all what she deserves and do things that would make her happy. Thank you for hurting her. Because if you didn't hurt her she wouldn't have realized her worth. Someone else will or is already doing all the things you failed to do, and will take care of her. Most importantly, he will not take her for granted and will do everything just to make her stay. And the best part us that she will start loving him soon, much more than she loved you...much more than you can ever think of. Because when she can love an asshole like you just think how deep her love would be for a pure soul who will do everything right. Unfortunately, the girl you left broken in the most inhuman manner, was somebody else's prayer and only wish.

What am I to you? I have been struggling through this for quite a long time now. I have somewhat realized that I have been holding on to a relationship that not really exists. To a commitment that ended long back. To the love that died because of all the lame excuses. To a person who changed in a blink of eye. Now I know that we can't hold on to something by questioning it all the time. But the sad thing about these kind of people is that they always come as someone really sweet and caring. They tend to show interest in everything that relates to you. It makes me laugh, how can one be so interested yet so uninvested. You see? There is a difference between someone who tells you they miss you and someone who actually does something about it. There is a difference between one who finds time for you and the one who makes time for you. These are a few things that took me a few heartbreaks to realize. We need to realize that being put first is not being demanding. It just comes wi...

Since the day we met, God has grown closer to me. Since the day we met, past pain doesn't feel so bad. Smiles have replaced tears. More than I ever prayed for is how I see life. Since the day we have met, I lost myself in laughter and love feels so good. Since the day we have met, each time I look in your eyes, my heart skips a beat. Since the day we met, my life hasn't been the same. ❤

Rejection is something which is equally hurtful. Be it a guy or a girl, it feels the same. The hurt, the pain and the damage doesn't differ for them because of them being a girl or a guy. Do you know how actually it feels when you get rejected by the only person you have deeply loved? Well...let me tell you, it is one of the most hurtful thing that can happen to a person. The person goes through both mental and physical trauma. Just by insulting, humiliating and rejecting the person based on his/her look doesn't makes you any better. In fact it makes you the ugliest of all. People like you are no less than a curse to the society. Good looks is all what you want. Irrespective of the person's feelings. All the pretty ladies, just read the following part a little louder 😊 Accept yourself. Trust me you are good enough. There is no bloody guy on earth who can complete you, because you are already complete. Don't let him make you cool and hip, you are super c...

Do you know what it is like to lose someone you love the most? Do you know what it is like to get your trust broken by someone you trusted more than yourself? Do you know what it is like to prove yourself for 100 times a day? Like a 1000 million pieces of glass are piercing your very own soul. Like you are a stranger to your own self. Like your heart was the living poetry but you ran out of ink. Maybe this is what real loss feels like. A fake smile, swollen eyes, blank mind, four functioning limbs, and a hollow space between your ribs. 💔

You deserve someone who will love you with every beat of his heart. Someone who will think about you constantly. Someone who will spend every minute of the day wondering about your smallest movements. You need someone who can help you reach your dreams, protect you from your fears and stand by you when no one else is. You need someone who will appreciate all your flaws, respect you, love every part of you. You should be with someone who would make you smile even on the hardest days and can understand your silence when you aren't willing to explain yourself. You deserve the best. 😊